Chapter 5: The Unfulfilled Woman

I've started reading a book called "When a Woman Meets Jesus" and have decided to blog my process through it. There are “Exploration” and “Inspiration” questions on each “woman” that is being studied. I want this study to really be a candid look into my life and feel like blogging will help keep me accountable in this reading and to get the most from this book. I'd love to hear your thoughts. So email me at lisadavis714@gmail.com.

Questions taken from When a Woman Meets Jesus Chapter 5

Exploration of “The Unfulfilled Woman”

1.      What is my dream?

What a wonderfully hard question!  Like I mentioned in a previous blog I really want to find the little girl from the orphanage in Thailand.  Along with this I really want to be able to adopt as well as have a few kiddos of my own.  I'd like to pay off all of our student loans fast, buy a fixer upper house and turn it into our “house of dreams.” I want to be a stay at home mom, travel the world, have money that I could do whatever I wished with.  And eventually I want to help and start a home for unwed mothers.

2.      How have I attempted to fulfill this dream?

I haven’t been able to do much of any of this.  We've been paying on our loans, but that is a very slow process.  I don’t think we are going to adopt until we have gotten out of debt.  I don’t think we will buy a house until we get out of debt either.  I’ve done a lot of traveling, but I’m never satisfied.  The more places I go the more I want to see.  That all costs money.  I hope I will be able to be a stay-at-home mom.  That’s one of the reasons we don’t want to start a family quite yet.  We want to figure things out first.  I wish we would be out of debt when we started a family, but I don’t think we will wait that long.  I also did a report for a business class in college on a house for unwed mothers.  That might be a starting point for my house one day. 

3.      What do I think would bring me the fulfillment I want?

I think when we have a family that will bring me more fulfillment then what I have now.  I may wish for the rest of the things still, but I would never trade away my family.  Ultimately God is the only true fulfillment, yet we should never believe that we know Him well enough and we should continue to seek His will for our lives.  That is the only way we will find fulfillment.  Everything else will leave us feeling empty.

4.      What things am I hanging on to, hoping I can use them to get what I want?

I’m not sure what this really means other than the memory of my little girl in Thailand and my college report.

Inspiration for “The Unfulfilled Woman”

1.      If I had been Joanna, what need in my life would I ask God to fill?

The need for security.  I want to know everything is ok.  Yet I worry too much about money, making ends meet, and our future.

2.      Are there “things” in my life that are holding me back from fulfilling God’s destiny for me?

Money, like I said, is a huge struggle for me, yet giving is one of my biggest spiritual gifts, what an irony!  Because of my fear of money and wanting the best future for our family, I struggle with the desire of wanting to be a stay at home mom.  There is nothing more I want in the world, but at the same time I want us to live comfortable lives, get out of debt fast, save for the future, make sure we can do the things we want to comfortably, help our kids pay for college….

3.      What do I think is God’s purpose for my life?

I’m still trying to figure this out.  God has given me a ton of passions and convictions and I’m trying to discern His full purpose in my life.  I’m still young, so I still have my whole life ahead of me, yet I don’t want to waste any of it either.    

4.      Have I accepted his purpose for my life?  Why or why not?

I think I will, once I know what I’m to do.