Monday, May 21, 2012

"Counted Among Us" (Sermon I preached May 20, 2012)

            There are not many things that hurt a person worse than betrayal by a friend or loved one. Someone who has been betrayed is usually affected to the very core of their being. Think about all the stories that include betrayal and revenge. Take the story of Ben Hur, for example. Judah Ben Hur is betrayed by his childhood friend Messala after they have a disagreement about who is their sovereign power. Messala believes the only divine being is the Roman Emperor since he holds the most power. Judah refuses to believe this, holding on to his religion that says Yahweh is the supreme power and he wouldn’t rat out fellow Jews who didn’t support the Romans. After an accident in which loose roof tiles fall and injure the Roman governor, Judah, his mother and sister are imprisoned. Even after Messala realizes the incident was an accident, he allows Judah to be sold into slavery and his mother and sister to be kept in prison. For the rest of the story Judah is consumed with getting revenge on Messala. His entire being is affected, and he is consumed with hate. Only his witnessing of the crucifixion of Jesus changes his heart. 
              Betrayal isn’t just a good plot line for a book or movie, but happens in real life as well. A few people in history have themselves become synonymous with treachery and betrayal. In our own country, for example, the name Benedict Arnold means traitor. Arnold was a General in George Washington’s Continental army. He was a great soldier and many would argue that he may have saved the revolution with decisive victories. But his wavering loyalties and eventual treason have forever cemented his legacy as a traitor. But, there may be one man who is a more infamous traitor than Arnold: Judas Iscariot.
There’s not much about Judas in the Bible.  But, it’s unlikely Judas stuck out like a sore thumb among the disciples.  As Peter states in our First Lesson, “For he was counted among us and took his share in the ministry.”  John Gill, a theologian in the 1700s said, Judas, “…was not only called an apostle, and enrolled among them, but he really had a part in that ministry; he preached, and baptized, and wrought miracles; and besides all this, carried the bag, was the treasurer, and a sort of a steward in Christ’s family, and provided for it.”  In other words, Judas was trusted; trusted so much that the group allowed him to manage the money.  I suppose that at the Passover meal, while the disciples were disputing who was the greatest among them, Judas’ name would have been mentioned or thought of because he served a major function in the group.  When Jesus said someone would betray Him during the Passover meal, no one immediately pointed to Judas.  In fact, each disciple asked if they would be the betrayer.  When Judas left the meal, there was confusion among the disciples as to why.  John writes that the disciples thought one of two things: since Judas was in charge of the money he was either going to give it to the poor or, like typical men, they thought he might be getting more food for the Feast.  But this is where the Gospel says, “As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him.” And a few verses later John adds, “As soon as Judas had taken the bread, he went out.  And it was night.”                                               
There is a document known as the Gospel of Judas, however it is a Gnostic gospel.  The main premise of Gnosticism is that Jesus gave certain people His “real” secret revelation. These teachings, however, undermine Biblical teachings and have been considered heresy since their inception.  This particular gospel was actually forged by people about a century after the Canonical gospels were written.  Although it is not authoritative, the existence of such a gospel begs the question, “Why would someone write this?”  Dan Clendenin suggests that “Perhaps it was natural that 150 years later some Gnostics gave Judas’s reputation a makeover.  The ‘Gospel of Judas’…which contains very little that is specifically Christian—portrays Judas as a hero who betrays Jesus at his own request, not as the quintessential villain.”  Like Clendenin, I do not believe that Jesus and Judas were in on things together, that Judas had the real revelation of Christ, which the rest of the disciples couldn’t understand putting them on the outside. However, I do not believe that the Spirit of God left Judas. 
      The Bible clearly states that the Spirit of God left Saul in 1 Samuel 16, but we do not find that being the case about Judas in the Gospels, rather that Satan entered him.  So how did Satan enter Judas if the Spirit of God didn’t leave him?  Martin Luther explains that there are three sources of temptation: Satan, the world, and our own selves.  I believe any of these could have lead Judas to betray Christ.  Christian author John Eldridge takes this idea a step further when he calls the self the “traitor within.” This traitor within is the flesh that the Apostle Paul writes about.  Paul says that the Spirit is at war with this traitor.  Eldredge explains that you can have the best fortress ever built, but if there’s a traitor inside, the fortress will surely fall. 
The Bible doesn’t give a specific motive for Judas betraying Christ, it simply says that Satan entered him.  How do you think that Satan entered him?  What did Judas do to allow Satan to enter?  I often thought that Judas like Saul went mad, but I no longer think this is the case.  Notice that sometimes when Satan enters a story he doesn’t stir up bitterness, foaming at the mouth, crazy eyed, insane people, but tries to bargain with the traitor inside and enters as something seemingly good, right, beautiful, and as something to the normal person, makes sense. For Satan is an evil manipulator and can be disguised as an angel of light.  Let’s look at a few examples. 
In the Garden of Eden Satan approaches Eve asking her why she couldn’t eat of the tree.  She answers, “If we eat of it then we will die.”  And what does he say?  “You will not surely die, for God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”  And Eve saw that the fruit was good for food, beautiful in her eyes, and believed that she would gain wisdom, becoming like God, so she took the fruit in her hands, pressed it between her teeth, and took a bite. 
Even in the story of Job we see that it wasn’t Satan telling Job to curse God, but rather his friends, the world, tempting this man of God.  Though, Satan didn’t make Job’s friends crazy, he was able to plant in their minds the idea that Job must have done something wrong for all of this to have happened.  To them it seemed obvious.  It was the world that tempted Job to curse God and move on.  But Job knew the way to make sure the traitor wouldn’t let the enemy in.  He knew he had to kill the traitor, or crucify the flesh and he did so by trusting in God.
My last is example is when Jesus went into the desert for 40 days.  At the end of His time there, Satan approached him three times.  Once was when Jesus was hungry and Satan tried to reason with him.  Satan said that if Jesus was truly the Son of God, He would turn the rocks into bread and eat it.  Eating when you are hungry isn’t evil, but Jesus saw past the statement and saw the intention behind it. 
Then Satan told Jesus to prove Himself by jumping off the temple.  Satan reasoned that angels would catch Jesus if He were the Son of God; this time he even quoted scripture.  It’s true that Jesus was the Son of God and there’s nothing wrong with proving what is true, but Jesus once again looked beyond the statement and saw the motive. 
Lastly, Satan took Him to a high mountain and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and told Jesus that he’d give all of it to Him, if only Jesus would worship him.  This is a more blatant attempt of coaxing Jesus, He wouldn’t have to die, yet, Jesus knew that even though the world has been overrun with sind, it still wasn’t Satan’s to give and once again deflected things that seemingly made sense.  But Satan’s attempted manipulation was in vain for Jesus didn’t have a traitor inside, because although he was fully human, He was one with God. 
            So, Satan left Jesus, but he did not give up.  He waited for the opportune time with the opportune traitor that would give him access to Jesus.  That person was Judas.  Now we should examine how Satan may have persuaded Judas to do his bidding.                                                                         
Although I do not agree with all of his theology, William Barclay suggests a few motives Judas may have had.  His first theory is that Judas felt like an outsider in the group.  This is suggested because some believe “Iscariot means a man from Kerioth,” which would be in the south making him the only non-Galilaean.   Being the outsider he would have felt out of place which may have driven him to kill Jesus. 
But as John Gill pointed out, this was probably not the case for Judas not only was a part of the ministry but had a pivotal role. 
Secondly, Judas may have betrayed Jesus out of pure greed for money.
Thirdly Barclay writes, “It may be that Judas came to hate Jesus. From others he could disguise his black heart; but the eyes of Jesus could penetrate to the inmost recesses of his being.”  And for that Judas hated Jesus enough to kill Him.
           Fourthly, another theory has Iscariot meaning “dagger bearers.”  This group would have helped in the war cause that fought desperately to see the Romans forcibly removed from Palestine.  They would have thought the Messiah was coming to be a military leader.  Had Judas been a part of this group, the realization that Jesus would not fight may have so frustrated Judas to the point of betrayal. 

The last suggestion, which is the most probable, is that by betraying Jesus, Judas didn’t actually want him to die.  Many people outside of the dagger bearers also thought the Messiah was coming to free the Jews from the Romans.  Maybe Judas thought that turning Jesus over to the authorities would force Jesus to rise up as the militaristic Messiah. Barclay says, “If that be so, Judas had the tragic experience of seeing his plan go desperately wrong; and in his bitter remorse he committed suicide.”
         Jesus stirred up enough trouble to be this Messiah, but never with the right people at the right time.  He’d been captured by the crowds before and escaped, but wouldn’t the Messiah fight against soldiers?  Maybe Satan convinced Judas in the same manner he convinced Eve that the fruit was good, making Judas believe that by turning Jesus over to the chief priest that he’d actually be doing everyone a favor forcing Him to show His power as the Messiah.  The traitor within Judas was paid off, and being convinced, Judas made his plans, and opened his heart to allow Satan to enter *at the opportune time*. 
Now let’s change lenses for a second and compare Judas to another figure, Peter, who as our first lesson shows, was the new leader of the early church.  Both men had been specifically called to the ministry by Jesus.  As John Gill pointed out, each would have preached, baptized, and performed miracles.  They each expected the messiah to conquer the Romans; we can see that Peter thought this by his fighting manner when the guards came to take Jesus.  Peter drew his sword and even cut off a servant’s ear.  And when push came to shove, both men turned their backs on their Rabbi.  This may be more serious than we understand.  
Ann Spangler and Lois Tverberg indicate in their book Sitting at the Feet of Rabbi Jesus, that “one’s rabbi was considered to be as dear as one’s own father.”  Judas betrayed Him for 30 pieces of silver by means of a kiss. 
Peter denied Him, three times.  After their disloyalty became evident to each, they both felt remorseful.  After Peter denies Jesus 3 times in Matthew’s Gospel, he hears the rooster crow, goes outside and doesn’t just tear up or cry, Matthew says he “wept bitterly.”  Matthew wrote his gospel in a way that linked ideas or themes together so it is not coincidence that immediately after Peter’s betrayal Matthew resumes the story of Judas.  Matthew writes that Judas, “was seized with remorse and returned the thirty silver coins to the chief priests and elders,” saying, “’I have sinned for I have betrayed innocent blood.’”  But they didn’t care for they had gotten what they wanted, Jesus was going to die.
But Peter and Judas differ in one distinct way.  That is, in how they respond to their own sinful deeds.  Judas took matters into his own hands and not being able to forgive himself, hanged himself in a field.  Imagine if Judas would have waited 3 days. Jesus would have forgiven him.  It would have been the real life example of the prodigal son coming home to his father. 
Although Peter didn’t kill himself, I don’t think he trusted himself either.  Jesus had changed his name from Simon to Petra or Peter which means Rock. He was supposed to be the Rock Jesus was going to build his church on.  Yet he crumbled and denied Jesus repeatedly.  But John ends his Gospel with Jesus reinstating Peter.  Just as Peter denied Jesus three times, Jesus restores him by asking Peter the same question three times.   It was probably the toughest question anyone could ever face.  Imagine what Peter must have felt after explicitly denying Jesus in His time of need.  He had to look into Jesus’ eyes, which must have pierced his soul, and answer the question, “Do you truly love me?”  By not taking matters into his own hands, Peter was able to experience God’s grace.  Judas never got that chance.
          When I think of how we should respond to God’s grace despite our sins, I am reminded of an experience I had in Thailand.  I got the opportunity to go to an orphanage one day.  The guys in our group went off to play ball with the boys.  There was a group of older Thai girls coloring and playing games and most of the girls on our team stayed with them. But I saw a few girls on our team walk into a building and decided to follow them.  In this building were “rejected babies.”  Most of them were old enough to walk, but had a deformity such as a clubbed foot.  As I entered a girl no older than 2 stood at the door with her hands in the air, wanting me to hold her.  Her ailment was that she was missing a finger, a pinky finger.  We only got to play with in there for an hour and then we were forced to go play with the “normal” kids.  We weren’t allowed to take pictures because the people were afraid that if the pictures we took back to the U.S. were of deformed children, then no one would want to adopt from this orphanage.  I only put this little girl down once the whole hour and that was to fix my hair.  When I did she cried for me to pick her up again and hated that I had put her down. 
In my quiet time the following day, I couldn’t get her out of my mind. It was then that I realized something; we each have deformities because of our sin.  But like that little girl we each need love. It’s the times when we feel alone, like God is not holding us, that we are faced with the choice to trust Him or take matters into our own hands.  I wish I could say that I am like the little girl, always seeking God to pick me back up and restore me again, but so often I do the opposite.  So often I am like Judas and instead of waiting for restoration I do desperate and stupid things that hang myself out to dry. 
When I read that Peter said Judas was counted among the disciples the question I ask myself is “am I any different than Judas”  I call myself a Christian, which means, “Little Christ,” but is that the way I act?  I have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.  My sins have betrayed and denied Jesus, nailing Him to the cross.  But how do I respond to my sin?  Often, I am more like Judas than I am like Christ, taking matters into my own hands rather than fully relying on God.  However, I have to remember that, like Peter, I now know the end of the story.  I know that Jesus did bear my sins on the cross, died, but three days later rose again, and I now have the Holy Spirit in me.
So, what can we make of these two disciples?  How do their stories affect us?  Let me leave you with a couple questions to ponder.  First, is your flesh, or the traitor within you, effecting who you listen and open your heart to?  Secondly, how do you react when you realize you’ve sinned, by taking matters into your own hands, hanging yourself out to dry so to speak, or will you allow the grace of God to cover your guilt and shame?  And lastly, are you like Judas and Peter trying to force God’s hand or running and hiding; or are you like Christ who chose not to live a second without the presence of God evident in Him? 
God promises that He will never leave you or forsake you, or “put you down to fix His hair”, for you have been saved by grace through faith in Christ’s body broken for you, His blood shed for you, in order that you might be resurrected with Him.  Remember, had Judas not taken his life, even he, the most infamous traitor in history, would have been forgiven.   Let us learn from his mistake and trust God instead of acting upon our own impulses.  As the Psalmist says, “wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord.” 

Amen

Monday, March 5, 2012

Your Eyes

The other day Proverbs 27:19-21 caught my eye.  It said, “As in water face reveals face, so a man’s heart reveals the man.  Hell and Destruction are never full; so the eyes of man are never satisfied.  The refining pot is for silver and the furnace for gold, and a man is valued by what others say about him.”  I think all of these verses go together.  Our heart reveals the essence of who we are.  It is able to show our depth.  We may be able to fool people for a while, but the truth always comes out.  Many times our down fall is caused by our eyes.  Because they are never satisfied, our eyes can cause us to lust, covet, create false idols, etc.  God gave us these eyes so that we might desire Him and that He could reveal His beauty through His creation to us.  But because of sin, our eyes have become distorted.  Our character is what defines us; it will make us who we are and people will be able to know if we are true or not.   We should desire a good name.  Our name is who we are, the essence of our being.  Our name is going to be how others remember us.   How do you want to be remembered?  You are precious in God’s sight no matter what you’ve done.  1 Corinthians 6 illustrates this love.  In verses 9 and 10 Paul writes, “Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God?  Do not be deceived.  Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor catamites, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortionists will inherit the kingdom of God.”  That doesn’t make it sound like you or anyone else is good enough for God’s love and especially His grace.  Pretty much all of these things are caused by our eyes not being satisfied and us surrendering to the will of our flesh rather than the will of our spirit.  But where God’s love does come in is in the following verse, “And such were some of you.  But you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the Spirit of our God.”  What Paul is saying is that some of the people he was writing to were the people from verses 9 and 10, but God washed them clean and made them new.  Never think that God cannot love you because of what you have done in your past.  We are all able to accept the grace God gave to us through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ no matter how unclean and unworthy we may think we are because through Christ’s blood we can be made clean.  There is no sin too great that it cannot be forgiven.  Being made clean is a simple way of saying we’ve been made pure.  Pure; that’s what we long for.  Purity is being made valid.  However, we often seek validity away from God and our eyes play an important role in search of validity away from God.  Only Christ can validate us, because of His resurrection.  Because Christ lives, we can be made pure and valid.  Only someone perfect could stand in for someone so unclean and justify a fallen and condemned people.  He loves us despite of our flaws and can forgive us no matter how “bad” we think we are.  That is true love.  Feel validated.  Never feel like you are “too bad” for God’s grace.  Remember some of the Corinthians fell into “the list” and God forgive them.  He can and will forgive you too.  Don’t let your eyes lead you astray; instead allow your eyes to gaze upon God's goodness.  Remember that your heart reveals the real you that cannot be covered up.  Even if you can fool everyone else in the world, you cannot fool yourself or the One who made you.  See your value.  Seek a good name.  Define your legacy by knowing you are made valid in Christ.  

Monday, January 9, 2012

Wait? For what?

“Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; for false witnesses have risen against me, and such as breathe out violence.  I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.  Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD” –Psalm 27:13-14.

“Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD,” a verse that has always been underlined in my Bible.  It has been one of my favorite verses in the Bible because “wait” seems to be an answer God so often gives me and something that I always need to be reminded to do.  I however, never took the time to think about what prefaced this verse; I always knew I needed to wait, but never knew what I was supposed to wait for.  And in walks verse 13.  This verse puts verse 14 into perspective.  I often lose heart and lose it quite fast, especially when things are difficult.  I shouldn’t though, because there is hope; God is good, what more should we desire than to see His goodness?  This goodness can also be defined as beauty; so in other words we must wait for God to reveal His beauty to us.  Verse 13 promises that we will experience His goodness or profound beauty in this lifetime, on this earth.  However, as verse 14 points out, we must wait on the LORD and be careful not to lose heart, and instead to be of good courage.  Courage takes work, especially when it is easier to give up and lose heart.  Yet, God promises that if we wait on Him, instead of losing heart, He will strengthen it and reveal His goodness and beauty to us.

 These verses go right along with my last week’s theme verse of Isaiah 45:18, which says, “For thus says the LORD, Who created the heavens, Who is God, Who formed the earth and made it, Who established it, [and now my favorite part of this verse!] Who did not create in vain, who formed it to be inhabited: ‘I am the LORD, and there is no other’” (emphasis added).  I love that this verse says that God did not create in vain.  What purpose that gives us!  What hope that provides!  What goodness He can reveal to us if we truly believe that He did not create in vain! 

I hope that this inspires you today as it did me.  Remember that you are made with and for a purpose.  You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).  God has taken His time to sculpt you and precious are His thoughts towards you (139:13, 15-17), for He did not create in vain. 

Do not lose heart, but believe that God will show you His goodness in the land of the living, which is on this earth and in this lifetime.  Don’t let doubt creep into your heart, but allow your courage to over come it, and He will strengthen your heart.  Just wait on the LORD.